Probably the biggest challenge in getting and feeling better is changing my mindset. Being more positive and not beating myself up so much when I feel like I've failed or not done as well as I expected. I have to tell myself that not every day has to be brilliant and I don't have to accomplish a bunch of things in order to be content or happy. Having a day to myself where I don't do much is okay as long as I don't shut myself down again and have a bunch of days like that. I try to take a walk every day for about 30 minutes. This helps me a lot and just being outside is good for me and makes me feel better. There are some days where I really don't feel like it, but I tell myself just to go outside for 5 or 10 minutes and then I can go back inside if I want to. Most of the time I end up walking for 20-30 minutes anyway when I do that. It's taking the 1st step and going out that's the hard part. Once I'm out there I enjoy it and it's easy to stay out for a longer walk. Other times I do skip a day of walking, and that's okay too. I'm learning not to be negative and tell myself that I've failed just because I had a day where I didn't walk. Living one day at a time and doing my best each day is all I can expect of myself.
I don't know why I'm so hard on myself sometimes. I beat myself up over the littlest things that don't even matter. Working on changing that mindset is hard but I know I can do it. When those old doubts and feelings come back, I take a deep breath and acknowledge them. I know that it's not always sunshine and roses and some days it's just hard to be happy. Some days you just have to simply be. But having those days doesn't mean that I've had a set back. It just means that I'm human and everyone has days like that. I just can't let one bad day send me back in a downward spiral of a bunch of bad days. So I acknowledge those doubts, accept that I'm not perfect (and that no one is), take a deep breath, and tell those thoughts to take a hike. I pray, I reflect, I meditate, I look at positive blogs and FB pages that give me inspiration.
Changing my mindset is hard, but I know that with patience and time that I can do it. I know that I have a lot of support and love in my corner and that I do have people who care and that I can turn to them when I need to. I know that God is watching over me and he is my biggest supporter. All I have to do is ask for help, which is another thing I'm learning to do better. I'm finding methods that do help me focus and find peace. I think that sometimes I think I'm just supposed to automatically be this happy person, but it's not always possible to just wake up happy everyday. I have to work on it. I have to keep busy and go out and be around people more. It's hard work, but I know it's worth it. I'm worth it.